BUTTERFLIES ON A SEA WIND, Beginning Zen
by Anne Rudloe
192 Pages, September 2002
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CHAPTER 3:  DOWN HOME ZEN

Limestone rock outcrops lay scattered across the sandy bottom like oases in a desert, their surfaces coated with yellow, red, and lavender sponges and sea squirts and soft corals. Unlike a desert, the sandy, open areas were also full of life, but most of what lived in them was small and hidden beneath the surface. Whatever fish were present had darted away as I dove into the water. The green, murky water was itself alive, full of innumerable microscopic plants and animals, too small for me to see individually. Sea whips covered the rocks like a forest. About two feet high, they looked a lot like bare-branched trees in winter except that they were bright yellow, purple, or orange. Their branches were encased in a white fuzz of feeding tentacles, which captured microscopic food out of the current as the tide rose.

The longer I looked at them, the more there was to see. Tiny, skeleton-shaped, shrimplike creatures hung on to the sea whip branches, bending and flexing as they too seized food that was too small for me to see. Little snails, members of a species that occurs only on this particular sea whip, were barely visible, perfectly matched in color with the sea whips. The snails' color came from what they ate, and they ate the sea whips' surface tissue. Yellow sea whips had yellow snails, purple sea whips had purple ones.

Zen practice emphasizes staying aware of each moment as we live it. If I hadn't already known about the snails and looked carefully, I never would have noticed them. The world is full of subtleties, and a lot of the time we are so preoccupied with our personal agendas, reviewing the past or anticipating some future moment, that we overlook most of what is before us in the present.

A cynic once observed, "We can't imagine that there is nothing more to life than just the experience of the moments between birth and death. That would be too absurd! Our existence. . . must have some greater meaning, and if the universe won't tell us what it is, then we will have to make something up." Watching the tiny shrimp and snails on the sea whips, I realized that those moments between birth and death are exactly what we have in life. If we just pay full attention to each of them as we live it, the universe will tell us what it's about. And I strongly suspected that it was as much about sea whips and snails as it was about humans.